THIS BLOG AIN'T DEAD

yeahh... i haven't updated for well i think for 6 months over now haha but this blog IS NOT DEAD im coming back just..... indefinitely xDDDD .....yes im being lazy xD anyhow this blog is on HIATUS im going to post something soon...probably...maybe....Gahh! anyways i'll update as soon as i feel like it xD

The Most Bitter of Bitter Has become The Sweetest of Sweet

Well Today is the Last of my Malaysian School Days...

But its always so funny how we humans are...we always want something more and always forget to stop and appreciate what we already have and how blessed we are and only when we lose it we really knew how much it was worth...hmm best not to let go of whats truly worth and recognize it before its too late.but of course everyone goes through their share of twists and turns, ups and downs & problems and pleasures . but after going through everything i truly from the bottom of my heart Thank You God! for everything for the amazing things and changes that happen to me,for the problems i go through that made me stronger and taught me that it's in these dire times that God does his deepest will for me and also i did enjoy it as well haha but after going through it all from 2008-2010 i have really grown leaps and bounds esspecially 2010 =) and that
the once most bitter memories,pains and scars are now the sweetest of memories,healed wounds and marks of breakthroughs.and they're sooo many things that happened to me that changed my life and made me who i am today and i thank you to all my dear friends who made that change in my life like a big picture and every change in my life is the stroke of the brush that paints the picture and really thank you God for everything and everyone in my life cause i wouldn't be the person i am today without Him and also going through everything with me like a Father.

.Ps. sorry but ill do a proper dedication to my dear friends in another post xP soooo to be continued xD.

Conversation With God

God: This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.
Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something..
God: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.
Me: Don't know. But I cant find free time. Life has become hectic. It's rush hour all the time.
God: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.
Me: I understand. But I still can't figure it out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.
God: Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.

Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?
God: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.

Me: Why are we then constantly unhappy?
God: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.

Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
God: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty. .
God: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
God: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experience their life becomes better not bitter.

Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?
God: Yes. In every terms, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons
afterwards.

Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can't we be free from problems?
God: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.

Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading..
God: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside.. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?
God: Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead.. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.

Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
God: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.

Me: What surprises you about people?
God: When they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they never ask "Why me".
Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.

Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I can't get the answer.
God: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.

Me: How can I get the best out of life?
God: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.
God: There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.

Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the New Day with a new sense of inspiration.
God: Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life
is a mystery to solve, not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live....


" DON'T EXPECT A GREAT DAY....


.... MAKE ONE..."

No This Blog Aint Dead

No this blog isn't dead....maybe just dying....but not dead xP hahaha its in hibernating mode as ill update more frequently after My PMR so around another 2 more months...><

Revelations? Doomsday & Armageddon in Two Years?

Recently i just keep hearing about,2012,nostradamus,isaac Newton saying 2012 or 2060 is the time of Great tribulation,and churches n so on talking about revelation but why is it everyone wants to know WHEN but although it is good to know what will happen or rather what it signifies sort of haha anyhow why cant people just live life to the fullest like maybe forgive someone,reconcile,say you love them to your love ones and be ever ready for the coming of Christ because the bible says that he comes like a thief n You'll never know when he'll come so always be ready and yes your life may very well end this very minute so please just live life to the fullest forgive and forget,be happy life is precious,wonderful and beautiful and well i have been having some struggles but i guess for the past few days i have been having some clarity and happiness and i have a message to a certain someone at the end of this post.

anyway today i was just reading revelation and wow it sounds really sad and scary about whats to come but at the end its really spectacular news of the new Jerusalem haha but i don't believe in 2012 because the time of salvation we shall never know when it comes it comes. in 2012 im goina be alive and kicking for God but before today when i think about after-life i was scared maybe 1.in heaven for eternity would be boring but since there's no time it wouldn't be because boredom is more or so trying to pass time but then eternity would not have time so you could be repeating something over and over again and not be bored n i doubt it'll be boring because its altogether just beautiful even by just reading it 2. i thought in the end we go to blackness to where consciousness dissapear i dont know what it is n thats what makes it scary but then now whenever i think about it im not scared because i know in the end im goina be with him =) im goina be standing in the golden streets and be happy with him and no more pain or sorrow or tears but of a new order.

anyhow we should all just live life as it is and stop counting down days and start making days count (and that ryhmes xD) because short or long just make it count and happy =)

and to a certain someone.im not going to waste time and effort and im trying my best to live up to what im posting now by doing everything i can to live life to the fullest and for one i guess we shall have a long chat and if we reconcile thats great =) we can start with a new begining and share sorrows and joys again but if this is the end then so be it =) anyhow of the outcome i still love you my dear =D so anyhow i want to let you know I LOVE YOU FOREVER MORE

My Week? haha...

Hmm my week was fun and GREAT =D ahahaha i just feel that i shld update my blog hahaha but i'm too lazy to post pictures at the moment xP

Monday & Tuesday:-

i had Mssd basketball gameAgaisnt Tropicana & DJ 0.0 we didnt win any BUT WE COULD HAVE WON ONE if it wasn't for a certain teacher but what the heck we had fun,we had experience n we CAMWHORED XD ahahaha

Wednesday:-

hmm not much just basketball practice & yikes we had stamina training xP we had to run like mad 0.0 well not run mad mad but just mad im sure next week.... we will be drilled 100x more than this....

Thursday:-

I had Prefect interview & exam haha... i screwed it up obviously xD
exam i just hantam only,interview i got interviewed by puan Suhailah,Andrew Fong & Sheng Hao 0.0 i got nervous like suddenly forgot what to say xD went blank then Sheng hao ask me to sing 0.o i know the song but then when he asked me of course i go blank n sing crap xD

PEPA JEAN BROUGHT HER CUTE GUITAR XDDDDDDDD no fair i couldnt play it much i had to go for the prefect thing T~T nvm im bringing mine next wed xD

Friday:-

Not much again hahaha xD just another day.then again i have alot to say but i just don't want to =P hahaha

SATURDAY!:-

AN AWESOME DAY XD . haha my cell had a gathering at Celine's house from 11am till 5pm.HER HOUSE IS BIG AND COOL 0.0 AWESOME JAM ROOM!!!! GREAT ATTIC!!! I LOVE YOUR HYPER TOY POODLE COPPER!!! XD hahahahaha we were watching "A Walk To Remember" Awww so sad xD i think everyone was kinda teary haha.its kinda boring at 1st then it gets sad =( hahaha then everyone was watching Glee well most of everyone i learnt to play a few tunes on the piano xD and I LOVE DRUMS!!!!!!!!!! I REALLY LOVE DRUMS XD ahaha altough i only know the basics haha Kaily said my coordination is not bad 0.0 lolz... ahahaha Tze Quan,Phoebe & Dawn was playing stuff on the piano so i just tried catching their beats and follow xD ahahha it was a fun day xD.

Sunday:-

just staring infront of the computer n books xD

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Thats pretty much it hahaha but i love music more than ever now xD ahahaha when i listen to music i just close my eyes and listen to every instrument individually n picture how its played n its like feeling the beats =DD ahahaha so YAYZ I got a new perspective of songs hahaha but its nice listening to songs that way haha i guess? i love drums xD its fun!~~~~~ well i dont have much to say or rather i just dont feel like elaborating so much now xD

Well signing out with much pokes, =D getting ready for yet another week xD

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Can i not update?......ii feel lazy xP