Ps i took this photo

Ps i took this photo

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Blogging in the ict room

Haha im blogging in the ict room XD bored~~~~~~~~ and ill continue my Nursery Ryhmes some other time XP haha feeling abit lazy or rather i got too much to blog abt XP haha erm ooh rite maybe over da weekend XP I WAN GO CHEER T~T yerrrr~~~~~~~~ I ALSO WAN GO MALAM BAKAT T~T SADS~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ NOOOOOO!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~ 2 MORE DAYS TIL TEMU MESRA T~T AND IM GOIN HYSTERICAL!! but with pokez XD haha im crapping Yayz~~~ yesterday we had a family discussion and i met my future niece - AMANDA! XP haha now she keeps calling me uncle haha see my relationship with my bro-in law is so good til they name their future daughter after me XD haha.... swt...rites haha ok thats all for now till i think of what to blog exactly

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Nursery Ryhmes & Hymns part I

Jack and Jill went up the hill to fetch a pail of water
Jack fell down and broke his crown
And Jill came tumbling after.
Up got Jack, and home did trot
As fast as he could caper
He went to bed and bound his head
With vinegar and brown paper.


my last day of holz guess ill spend it by bloggin XP

do you know the jack and jill nursery ryhme?or rather do you know the story behind it?

Jack and Jill story
The roots of the story, or poem, of Jack and Jill are in France. Jack and Jill referred to are said to be King Louis XVI - Jack -who was beheaded (lost his crown) followed by his Queen Marie Antoinette - Jill - (who came tumbling after). The words and lyrics to the Jack and Jill poem were made more acceptable as a story for children by providing a happy ending! The actual beheadings occurred in during the Reign of Terror in 1793. The first publication date for the lyrics of Jack and Jill rhyme is 1795 - which ties-in with the history and origins. How about that when we were kids we would be singing that nursery ryhme about the execution of our so called jack and jill.

Death by Beheading
On the gruesome subject of beheading it was the custom that following execution the severed head was held up by the hair by the executioner. This was not, as many people think, to show the crowd the head but in fact to show the head the crowd and it's own body! Consciousness remains for at least eight seconds after beheading until lack of oxygen causes unconsciousness and eventually death. the execution methods at that time is so much more disgusting than the execution methods now blehh! i can't believe that there is even a crowd watching it haha at least now we don't use the guillotine....i'd be sicken by the gory sight..ugh.. for more information about the nursery rhymes go to www.ryhmes.org.uK


Mad Sailor or Mat Saleh?

haha hmm do you know why the malay's call whites mat saleh?hehe i heard this from a friend last time. im sure you know that last time the british invaded malaysia right well do you know there are sailors also right so when the white sailors go to a tavern or somewhere for a drink they would drink until they were drunk and would start crapping and shouting for things and ladies and such.so when that happens the other whites there would cry out "MAD SAILOR!! MAD SAILOR!!" so the malays who have no idea whats going on would join in thinking that the white call each other that and cry out "Mat Saleh!! Mat Saleh!!" so they pronounced it wrongly and there came the word Mat Saleh to describe Whites =D

haha yea dats all the crap i have for now XP but the title says "part 1" so there's a part 2 XD haha ok im goin high ciaoz for now and hello school




Friday, June 12, 2009

times~~~~~

wow my last 2 post are..........
hahaha CRAPPY CRAP CRAPZ XD haha what can i say hmmmm its just crap =D haha well then we all have our emo time XP or whatever it is you call it haha

to those people who know my situation and so on... its ok you don't have to worry its not goina happen again =) and im not quite sure as well haha i can't really say...ill just say that "the hands of time is moving again" but not exactly smoothly XP haha

hmmm the last 2 post were crap haha just some old memory....and something...hahaha GRRRRRRRRRRR I CAN'T STAND BEING EMO AND ALL ITS BORING!!!! haha XP

hmmm today i ate 3 ice - creams and 9 lolipops =D WAKAKAKAKAKA yayz~~~~~~~ but neva got to poke T~T haha yerrrrr school is reopening soon so fast~~~~~ ah well at least i can start poking again =D haha

ill say it one more time.... its ok =D the clock is definitely working and moving but may not be perfect yet but its steady =D haha if you(certain someone) are reading it you know what i mean =D haha hmmm ill have a long chat with you next time i guess haha

*POKE*X1000000000000000000000000000

ciaoz for now =D goodbye blog and hello ice cream XD

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Breaking!




to whoever is reading this just screw it... ur wasting ur time

......i can't see where this is going anymore....i hate this....i need to anchor myself somewhere or i won't know who i am anymore... i feel empty and screwed up...just please stop this nightmare and slow me down......im literally breaking apart.......i don't know how long i can keep up with this charrade... i hate this horrid indescribable intangible....why is it that every word of yours matters to me...and even after hearing a thousand times....it still hurts as bad as the first time...this piercing feeling...i feel so weak... i feel so mixed up in this one big painful feeling....im on the verge of breaking myself to pieces

....how long can i keep on with keeping it all inside...not long....your words always haunt me in my dreams...always lingering in it...and not to mention in pictorial forms as well... you make me feel so putrid....i hate it...i hate the fact that i wake up every hour when i sleep in cold sweat and lightheadedness....its either a nightmare or a black out.....my will to go on is gradually weakening....how long will it take to finish this nightmare

....but when it does i know it will leave me with an empty void...just like before...but worst of all is im lost at the moment...i don't know what to do anymore...i need to slow down and find my clear path...but im on the verge of breaking with this feelings...i can't feel much anymore...why?....before this ill always find something to do as my release and to run away from reality... but i cant anymore since ive lost it already...all of it... im screwed anyhow...

if u read all the way with my emo passage screw whatever i said...like i said im wasting your time....i just can't seem to think straight anymore..


Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Screw You!



if your the type of person who just can't stop yapping away about how i should be and where i stand and how i'm suppose to be or something Screw you!!!! get the hell out of my blog!! hey this is my life im not someone you can flipping make into like some shitty doll!! seriously just cause you don't have a life doesn't mean you can screw mine

worry about your circumstances than mine and just make yours work than procrastinating with making my circumstances the way you want. Really i feel like punching something...

and you know what else i always try to please you,always tried to flipping make you smile.... if you want me to stop or what just open your darn mouth then telling me im so inconsiderate and low understanding... THEN MAKE ME UNDERSTAND BY TELLING ME.. i asked you and all you do was scream at me saying i dun wanna talk about it...

you want me to stop or do this or that just say it. Aren't you tired of this charrade? i can read the situation without you telling me or anything but if u want it straight and firsthand information JUST SPIT IT OUT.. ... you come to me screaming out your stressed by me when i just do lil mistakes and show your stressed and tired emotions and saying im so naive and cheerful and why don't i make myself useful or something like that and going on im always high and cheerful well...

GUESS WHAT!!!!! IM HUMAN TOO OKAY UNLIKE YOU WHO IS SO UNDERMINING I HATE TO SHOW MY NEGATIVITY OKAY!!!! IM JUST FLIPPIN TRYING TO LIGHTEN THE MOOD AND FOR DONKEY YEARS YOU JUST SNAP AT ME THEN WHAT THE HECK AM I SUPPOSE TO DO! I HAVE EMOTIONS TOO OKAY SEEING YOU LIKE THAT MAKES ME FEEL THIS HORRID GUTTY FEELING OF GUILT AND PAIN SO WHATEVER IT IS IM SORRY ALRIGHT

it just feels so wretch bottling everything for so many years but just stop telling me i should be what or what okay...im sorry for being the way you describe me as inconsiderate,naive,self centered,stupid, and FOR NOT BEING ALL YOU WANTED AND AS GOOD AS THAT PERSON AS YOU WANT ME TO BE....just screw you!!! okay

Just stop it alright if im bothering you that much sorry ill never show my face to you again.....